Archive for the living with uncertainty Category


healing and the art of resiliency

Wolf is a teacher, meant to come back to the pack with life lessons and insights. Life, as a force or energy, has its own rhythm, ebbs, and flows. Our individual lives follow a subtle, circadian beat. Our days unfold in predictable patterns of space and time. Many of us, without knowing or meaning to, grow […]

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well-being in the face of hard times

How do you hang onto your well-being when life hands out hard stuff? Since my cancer diagnosis, I have become keenly aware of how much my attitude shapes my life.  You don’t have to have cancer to know this. There are plenty of life challenges to go around.  No matter what difficulty comes your way, […]

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on the other side of stuck

My first hint that my life would be unique came on the path of my career.  Women weren’t known for being auto mechanics in the 70’s.  But, I was. I saw that path as a possibility and when opportunity knocked, I swung that door wide open. Armed with my new awareness of mechanics – sockets and wrenches – a 12 mm […]

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the intrinsic power of change

“Hey, you look good,” has been the greeting du jour following my long ordeal of surgery and chemotherapy. I suspect “you look good” reflects so much more than a warm salutation. It’s certainly is not my looks. My typical attire is a t-shirt and baggy jeans. I am pretty sure friends are expressing, with all […]

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the powerful language of cancer

My dear friend Cheryl Jones, shared a beautiful, heartfelt tribute to her mother who died this past week of cancer.  One part stood out for me when she said, “for her, cancer was not a battle. It was an experience. It was her last experience.” I found these words to describe an incredibly beautiful perception. I wrote to Cheryl – […]

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4 stages too late

A year ago today, I was tossed into the vortex of our health care system.  A cat scan revealed that I had enlarged lymph nodes in my abdominal cavity.   It took 4 long weeks to get my final diagnosis…stage 4 ovarian cancer.   The five year survival rate for this cancer is less than 10 […]

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strength through surrender

Thinking of gaining strength through surrender must sound paradoxical.  It’s counter intuitive to think of surrender as an asset.  Yet, surrender is more than handing over one’s power. Surrender, when invoked from deep within, inspires acceptance, creative solutions, and resolution without struggle.  We all have gone through times of significant change.  Maybe it has manifested as […]

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chronic and inevitable

I have been trying to put my finger on why I am obsessed with recurrence.  Maybe it’s not so weird for someone with cancer, but, hey…I’m new at this. But why would I be antsy to have a recurrence come sooner than later?  What’s up with that?  It’s not that I am hopeless, or depressed.  It’s more […]

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good can come from hard times

Sometimes life deals us hard stuff.  Changes, transitions, loss, grief. When I tackle these difficult, sometimes painful aspects of life, good things can come of it. I  don’t mean that it doesn’t hurt to lose a relationship, or it isn’t stressful to make changes in our work or homes.  It doesn’t mean we don’t have fear when illness come knocking […]

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